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#NSS個人

[GUEST] 小妹今年f2,呢排覺得自己有抑鬱症,其實唔係第一日咁覺得,由f1升f2嗰個暑假變得好憂鬱,又唔開心演變成鎅手,一開始用釘書機啲釘,到後來用鎅刀鎅手,七月尾八月頭嗰陣勁唔開心,不停鎅不停鎅,結果就有幾條疤痕,夏天一熱嘅時候就會變紅,好明顯,當時阿媽唔小心睇到問我咩事我都係呃佢話螢光筆畫嘅。f2嘅時候鎅過幾次,仲俾同學問我咩事,我都係話畫嘅。因為f2發生好多事,我變得好憂鬱,前幾日啱啱鎅完,鎅嘅時候發覺唔痛,反而好享受(?),因為呢個係我唯一發洩嘅方法。之前家姐f2-f3都有過抑鬱症,阿媽之前同爸離婚都有抑鬱症,幾年先好返,唔知係咪遺傳…好想睇醫生,因為我都覺得自己心理好有問題。但係冇勇氣痛阿媽講,阿媽好錫我,覺得好對唔住佢。唔知點算好…