#NSS個人
[Guest] (TW: self harm)
(Sorry for typing in english, I feel more comfortable when I do so and I apologise in advance.)
School is depressing. It’s so difficult to catch up on things, and I can’t find a subject, or a thing that I’m good at/ I like. The important subjects (science, math) are so difficult to me and it literally makes me miserable when I’m told to do the assignments. The unholy amount of tests aren’t helping and the stress is unbearable, along with the fact that I cannot find a subject that could get me a job in the future is killing me inside. My parents told me that I have to be good, or at least mediocre in math, science and computer, but I have zero interest in them, if not a passionate hatred. They told me not to choose arts/ music/ 文科 when I’m in S3, but the only subjects I like are Chinese writing/ literature and music, though I doubt I would be able to make a future out of this.
I know people that have already decided on their future careers and are striving hard to accomplish their dreams. It makes me feel like a failure as I couldn’t even find my dream, let alone working for it. It pains me to think that maybe one day, I wouldn’t even be able to get a job, and how I will bring disgrace and the disappointment upon my family by being unemployed, and living like a parasite in their home.
I have no hope in the future and quite some times I have turned to self-harmed due to the stress and my gloomy future. Please give me some advice.
Stay hydrated,
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