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[a school in wts] I am a girl with family problems lately. not only i feel very lonely, I also feel like I want to commit suicide. I hate my life.
at home, I am always compared with my sister. my mum always said she is the one with satisfactory result and I am a rubbish to her. that really hurts me (long term). Also, she always said using mobile phone will greatly affect my results. I don’t think so. how come I can’t have any time for entertainment ? what is the deal with falling into kpop?
I love kpop. I use Instagram. I use whatsapp. anything wrong? no. I didn’t overuse it.
I know that she hates me. She threw my phone on the floor unreasonably. there are photos and money in my phone. how can I have them back if it can’t be fixed?
somebody help me in this hard situation. I really can’t bear it anymore.
everytime she speaks as if she is shouting and scolding me. it is such a noise.
sorry if my English is bad. I only know how to type English.
thanks for ur help.