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#NSS愛情 [GUEST] 長文 慎入 我覺得自己好賤格…咁小妹而家就from 1,我都知大家會叫我努力讀書,唔好諗咁多野,但係睇埋落去先… 咁喺小學嗰陣,我同一個同班嘅男仔係仇人嚟嘅,咁無啦啦我哋兩個就參加咗話劇班,又無啦啦俾我哋做咗主角。咁套劇係關於愛情嘅,一開始我哋係勁尷尬,到中段就開始慢慢習慣,但係到咗就嚟表演嗰幾日,我覺得自己好似有啲假戲情真,我好似鍾意咗佢,但係表完演之後我哋就開始冇乜交流,咁我就好似逐漸放棄咗佢,但係某一日調位嘅時候,老師將我哋兩個調埋一齊,咁我就成日好粗心大意,有時又唔記得帶書呀,唔記得帶褸啊,有時連筆袋都可以唔記得帶…咁佢就好似好關心我咁,我覺得凍嗰陣佢會問我:「你係咪好凍啊.?不如我幫你熄咗個冷氣呀?」即是所有人反對佢熄冷氣,佢都會幫我。我唔記得咗帶書佢會俾佢本書我,自己同老師講佢冇帶書,我覺得佢咁樣好細心,咁我逐漸又好似鍾意返佢。每一次調位老師都會將我哋調喺附近,可能因為我成績差?佢成績太勁所以要輔導下我?呢層我就唔知啦,咁我好似越嚟越鍾意佢,越嚟越鍾意佢…… 到咗畢業嗰日,我勁唔捨得,我唔捨得我嘅朋友,我嘅老師,更加唔捨得佢,但係嗰陣…我冇勇氣同佢影相留念,到而家我都好後悔。咁畢業禮下一日就係派註冊證,亦都係會知道對方去咗邊一間學校,咁我就入咗我嘅第一志願,我嘅第一志願同佢一樣,並唔係因為我想跟住佢,我唔會用我嘅前途作賭注,鍾意到咁癲,嗰間學校真係我好鍾意嘅學校,所以我先會擺去第一志願。而佢嘅第一志願都係呢一間學校,但係佢入唔到,佢去咗第二志願,佢有諗過去第一志願度叩門,因為佢都好鍾意呢間學校,但係佢冇咁做,我都唔知點解,知道咗佢唔係同我同一間學校之後,咁我就好傷心,喺屋企喊咗半日,到第二日我都接受唔到,但係逐漸我就放低咗。咁暑假嗰幾十日,佢都有keep住佢一直以來嘅習慣,就係每日同我講goodnight,佢每一次send嚟我都好開心,因為佢仲記得我,但係到開學左呢幾個月,佢開始冇乜搵我,可能係因為開學忙,咁我都算啦,我就暫時放低咗佢先。 我開學嗰一班,有個同佢好似嘅人,我好似鍾意咗佢…我唔確定,佢同佢嘅外型好似,性格好似,但係我覺得自己真係好賤,好花心,同時鍾意咗兩個人,不過我好似冇咁鍾意佢,我個心始終都係喺小學同學度。我而家唔知我對佢嘅感覺係點?究竟新同學係我小學同學嘅替代品,定還是我真係鍾意咗佢?我真係覺得自己好賤…我知道大家一定會叫我專心讀書,但係呢個問題一直都困擾緊我,我都想專心讀書㗎,但係我更加想了解我自己,究竟我係鍾意佢,定係佢只係我小學同學嘅替代品。我仲好想知我嘅小學同學究竟鍾唔鍾意我,呢個問題困擾左我更加耐,我真係好想知… Sorry